[ that's okay, even if it weren't affection week he would be fine with this. if anything, the week's effects just mean that he's not the singular cuddly person in a room most of the time. ]
I am, I am! There's water, it's a bit... strange, but I really don't lack for anything!
[ he missed the spa opening, but at least he can sleep underwater where he is now. ]
...To be honest, I think you all are having a harder time of it than we are. [ he'll pat nodd's head. ] We do see basically everything.
[ ok nix what was said earlier, yes, it's fortunate sidon is holding nodd up. hearing that the dead have all seen basically everything causes koala to go limp. ]
Oh. Goodie.
[ hiding face again. this is where he belongs. voice muffled again. ]
[ tilts back further to look at the ceiling. always check the ceiling. then back to sidon's eye. ]
I wasn't mad at her. I was mad at myself. So I said something I tell myself and I should have... saved the thought. It was a mistake. I do hope she's doing all right, wherever you're at. Margaret, too. Everyone I'm sure is now aware I can be a real dipshit. If I make it to Saturday, I'm not saying a damn word.
[ the way ceiling evidence was made famous the last time i died..... some things never change ]
Mm. I don't abide by what you did during Dion's trial. Please don't pull Todomatsu into those sorts of schemes either.
[ saying it frankly. if he's forthright about all the positive things, he'll be honest about the negative ones, too. still, there's no disdain in him. rather, he shifts nodd's weight enough so he can pat his head, the sort of princely reprimand in his voice giving way to warmth. ]
...But I understand that you were moved by grief. Some people feel more than others—and you clearly love very deeply, Nodd. I don't think that's a bad thing. So do not feel that you need to silence or punish yourself more than necessary, all right? That sort of love... I think you can apply it to something wonderful!
[ he's already clearly reflected on what's happened. more pat pats. ]
I still think of you as a dear friend—I'm sorry that we have caused you so much heartache.
[ ew, todomatsu. why does everyone like that little muppet (that is taller than nodd)? no comment! not even a good scheme partner to begin with--but no comment!!! ]
Ahhh, I don't know about that. The love thing. There is a fine line squiggled between stupidity, obsession, and feeling something.
[ the pats are nice. tilts head down but it's for more, not less. ]
You remind me of my mentor. And--heh--I haven't missed the monastery since I left, but gods. Life was so much easier there. No men. No murder. No... computers. Just mushrooms and scaring off the giants sometimes. Easy. No distractions.
it might be more difficult than anticipated this upcoming weekend, but whatever, Mr. Mystery Scale. ]
Para was a water genasi--nothing like a Zora, but part water elemental, so. Similar connection, maybe. She found me when I was at my lowest and gave me something to do. First, I repaired the Spire towers under her supervision. I didn't know fuck-all about carpentry, so she taught me what she could and we figured out workarounds. And after a while, she took me on as a pupil. She taught me how to fight better. How to clear my mind sometimes. To breathe. To use Keys to connect with the roots of our world. To trust people again.
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You seem okay. Are you okay? Are they feeding you in the afterlife?
[ don't starve the shark!!! ]
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I am, I am! There's water, it's a bit... strange, but I really don't lack for anything!
[ he missed the spa opening, but at least he can sleep underwater where he is now. ]
...To be honest, I think you all are having a harder time of it than we are. [ he'll pat nodd's head. ] We do see basically everything.
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Oh. Goodie.
[ hiding face again. this is where he belongs. voice muffled again. ]
See anything fun?
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Fun is a word. [ not the one he'd use, even if the curses and such are pretty silly. ] ...You've had a rough go of it, Nodd.
[ he draws back just a little, enough to make eye contact. ]
You know I don't want you to hold any grudges for my sake? I didn't fight Shouxue.
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[ tilts back further to look at the ceiling. always check the ceiling. then back to sidon's eye. ]
I wasn't mad at her. I was mad at myself. So I said something I tell myself and I should have... saved the thought. It was a mistake. I do hope she's doing all right, wherever you're at. Margaret, too. Everyone I'm sure is now aware I can be a real dipshit. If I make it to Saturday, I'm not saying a damn word.
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Mm. I don't abide by what you did during Dion's trial. Please don't pull Todomatsu into those sorts of schemes either.
[ saying it frankly. if he's forthright about all the positive things, he'll be honest about the negative ones, too. still, there's no disdain in him. rather, he shifts nodd's weight enough so he can pat his head, the sort of princely reprimand in his voice giving way to warmth. ]
...But I understand that you were moved by grief. Some people feel more than others—and you clearly love very deeply, Nodd. I don't think that's a bad thing. So do not feel that you need to silence or punish yourself more than necessary, all right? That sort of love... I think you can apply it to something wonderful!
[ he's already clearly reflected on what's happened. more pat pats. ]
I still think of you as a dear friend—I'm sorry that we have caused you so much heartache.
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Ahhh, I don't know about that. The love thing. There is a fine line squiggled between stupidity, obsession, and feeling something.
[ the pats are nice. tilts head down but it's for more, not less. ]
You remind me of my mentor. And--heh--I haven't missed the monastery since I left, but gods. Life was so much easier there. No men. No murder. No... computers. Just mushrooms and scaring off the giants sometimes. Easy. No distractions.
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Love in a bit of moderation, then!
[ there's a note of amusement there. maybe everyone could do with chilling out a bit. ]
...Life is very far from easy here. I'd be lying if I said I didn't miss my home either. [ but he doesn't linger on that. ] Tell me about your mentor?
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it might be more difficult than anticipated this upcoming weekend, but whatever, Mr. Mystery Scale. ]
Para was a water genasi--nothing like a Zora, but part water elemental, so. Similar connection, maybe. She found me when I was at my lowest and gave me something to do. First, I repaired the Spire towers under her supervision. I didn't know fuck-all about carpentry, so she taught me what she could and we figured out workarounds. And after a while, she took me on as a pupil. She taught me how to fight better. How to clear my mind sometimes. To breathe. To use Keys to connect with the roots of our world. To trust people again.