[she says, with a bitter little laugh. not all of her friends are dead, but a lot of them are!!]
... It's better that he was caught. [she says with a sigh. she's fine to just soak up the affection for now. most of the people she knows don't really like hugs, and like, neither does she, but sometimes this is really nice.]
Can I ask if you know if Sora was? Under the influence of the rage, I mean. [or did she just REALLY hate throné]
[ WE REALLY KILLED SO MANY OF HER FRIENDS WHY, he drops his head so he can just nuzzle her hair obnoxiously. ]
None of us wanted you to be caught. It would've been pointless! I'm grateful you survived!
[ it doesn't really need to be said, it's just to make sure she knows. but as he settles a bit, there's some somberness to his tone. ]
...Sora was... very unwell. She lost her way without any help. [ this is a nice way to say she was her own brand of crazy. he's clearly unhappy even if he's being understanding. ] She seems much better now. I want to be compassionate to her circumstances. Even so, it was unacceptable, and we're keeping an eye on her.
[she gives up immediately. he is allowed to flop on her like so.
it... takes her a good couple of seconds to try and think of something good? help. um. she casts around for something... i already know you know, arthur spilled immediately. he might be able to get it out of her though who knows.]
... I suppose Owner and I are getting along after last week. [she starts.]
but yeah, arthur immediately broke. who did this to him. he's fine with this completely platonic update. he's just glad to know she has some support. ]
Oh, good! I adore Owner! [ he thinks owner is normal, which is wrong. ] He's very fun to go shopping with—you should try it! I hope you're spending a little time on nothing.
... We spent time with the dogs, earlier this week. [and then francy deathflagged me so now i'm paranoid] I'll have to try to take him shopping sometime.
I've spent a lot of time reading. [she says, finally, still trying to think of things. like she's trying to get an A in not being miserably depressed for sidon.] Temenos and Arthur and I often just sit together and read in silence. It's... nicer than you might think.
[ (sidon voice) wow arthur is being so open he's really grown as a person
imagine someone giving francy death for once. he smiles at the mental image of a bunch of introverts in a room, doing their own thing together. gold star at not always being depressed. ]
Basking in the company of people you care about is wonderful, actually.
[ just being around each other. ]
It's those mundane moments that are worth living for, I think!
You're right. [like! now even! she can't have this all the time anymore and it sucks, but even just a couple of minutes of having sidon hug her and remind her that there is good in the world is something.]
Ugh. [she says, with a little laugh, rubbing at her face.] It hasn't been long, but I'd already started to forget what it feels like to be around you.
[ he grins! ugh! more obnoxious nuzzling happens. ]
Well, if you've forgotten, I'll remind you—I care for you very much! You're dear to me, and I'm proud that you've made it this far. I'm glad you still have so much to live for.
[ he wishes he could be around to say as much more often, because being able to hold someone and speak to them has its own volume, but at least there's today. he really is proud of her. ]
You can always write to us if you need some support, even if it's a poor substitute. Or using HER-MES! Even if [ glitching a second here ] ça fait de nous des... Français? [ anyway. ] I miss talking to you all too! So you can think of it as a favor.
[thinks about how i looked at the hermes one time and immediately went to anna like WHY IS SIDON FRENCH
she allows the nuzzling with the most put-upon look. but she softens almost immediately when he says what he does - the people she has here are getting better about telling her that they love her, but it's never as easy and simple as it is with sidon.]
... I care about you too, Sidon. [she says, quietly. because that is true! that much is true.]
I'll endeavor to send more messages. I can never tell when they reach you... I send them Mondays, most times.
Oh—we received them yesterday! [ which is tuesday help ] And around then the week before.
[ but he is truly always pushing the limits of what throne will put up with. still, he's dead and has no fear. he only has one day to shower people in affection week bass boosted affection, so he is being a cuddly dogfish. ]
...I know, and you're very dear to me for it. [ hearing affirmation back is nice, and—she has a very different approach to emotion than he does, but it doesn't feel any less sincere. he really believes her when she says it. ] I hope you're able to tell the others that you care for them, too.
[ SENDING STUFF BEFORE DIEDAY AND HOPING IT GETS THERE... this is fine. ]
Hardship does bring us all closer together—it's... something of a silver lining! [ this all sucks so bad, being an optimist in this economy is so hard ] Though I don't think there's really a bad time for confessions of the heart. [ he means this platonically but ] I'm glad you're putting them out there.
... I think that maybe you are not wrong. [that she has wanted to share them. it's just now that she's been able to do it, with all the people she's found here.]
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[she says, with a bitter little laugh. not all of her friends are dead, but a lot of them are!!]
... It's better that he was caught. [she says with a sigh. she's fine to just soak up the affection for now. most of the people she knows don't really like hugs, and like, neither does she, but sometimes this is really nice.]
Can I ask if you know if Sora was? Under the influence of the rage, I mean. [or did she just REALLY hate throné]
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None of us wanted you to be caught. It would've been pointless! I'm grateful you survived!
[ it doesn't really need to be said, it's just to make sure she knows. but as he settles a bit, there's some somberness to his tone. ]
...Sora was... very unwell. She lost her way without any help. [ this is a nice way to say she was her own brand of crazy. he's clearly unhappy even if he's being understanding. ] She seems much better now. I want to be compassionate to her circumstances. Even so, it was unacceptable, and we're keeping an eye on her.
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anyway she kind of laughs a bit at the hair nuzzle, elbowing him very gently. not in an effort to get away, but in that like squirmy cat way.]
... Hm. Well. I'll allow you to be the compassionate one. [throné like checks nails]
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he is not put off by her squirming. he definitely has overbearing dog energy in comparison. he just rests his head against her. ]
I certainly won't ask that you forgive her.
[ the vibes are that he's not exactly pleased with how things went either... but he goes for something more upbeat. ]
Tell me some good news instead. What have you been enjoying lately? New friends? Anything!
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it... takes her a good couple of seconds to try and think of something good? help. um. she casts around for something... i already know you know, arthur spilled immediately. he might be able to get it out of her though who knows.]
... I suppose Owner and I are getting along after last week. [she starts.]
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but yeah, arthur immediately broke. who did this to him. he's fine with this completely platonic update. he's just glad to know she has some support. ]
Oh, good! I adore Owner! [ he thinks owner is normal, which is wrong. ] He's very fun to go shopping with—you should try it! I hope you're spending a little time on nothing.
[ just... having fun. whatever. ]
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in any case, she laughs a little at that.]
... We spent time with the dogs, earlier this week. [and then francy deathflagged me so now i'm paranoid] I'll have to try to take him shopping sometime.
I've spent a lot of time reading. [she says, finally, still trying to think of things. like she's trying to get an A in not being miserably depressed for sidon.] Temenos and Arthur and I often just sit together and read in silence. It's... nicer than you might think.
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imagine someone giving francy death for once. he smiles at the mental image of a bunch of introverts in a room, doing their own thing together. gold star at not always being depressed. ]
Basking in the company of people you care about is wonderful, actually.
[ just being around each other. ]
It's those mundane moments that are worth living for, I think!
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You're right. [like! now even! she can't have this all the time anymore and it sucks, but even just a couple of minutes of having sidon hug her and remind her that there is good in the world is something.]
Ugh. [she says, with a little laugh, rubbing at her face.] It hasn't been long, but I'd already started to forget what it feels like to be around you.
[this is positive despite the ugh]
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Well, if you've forgotten, I'll remind you—I care for you very much! You're dear to me, and I'm proud that you've made it this far. I'm glad you still have so much to live for.
[ he wishes he could be around to say as much more often, because being able to hold someone and speak to them has its own volume, but at least there's today. he really is proud of her. ]
You can always write to us if you need some support, even if it's a poor substitute. Or using HER-MES! Even if [ glitching a second here ] ça fait de nous des... Français? [ anyway. ] I miss talking to you all too! So you can think of it as a favor.
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she allows the nuzzling with the most put-upon look. but she softens almost immediately when he says what he does - the people she has here are getting better about telling her that they love her, but it's never as easy and simple as it is with sidon.]
... I care about you too, Sidon. [she says, quietly. because that is true! that much is true.]
I'll endeavor to send more messages. I can never tell when they reach you... I send them Mondays, most times.
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Oh—we received them yesterday! [ which is tuesday help ] And around then the week before.
[ but he is truly always pushing the limits of what throne will put up with. still, he's dead and has no fear. he only has one day to shower people in affection week bass boosted affection, so he is being a cuddly dogfish. ]
...I know, and you're very dear to me for it. [ hearing affirmation back is nice, and—she has a very different approach to emotion than he does, but it doesn't feel any less sincere. he really believes her when she says it. ] I hope you're able to tell the others that you care for them, too.
[ rattles everyone into being more vocal ]
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[help. okay. well i guess i DO ALL MY MAIL ON MONDAYS THEN]
We get yours Fridays, so far. [she rests her head against him for now, easing into the cuddles. as for the last bit, she huffs.]
... I've been doing my best. It turns out there isn't much that coaxes confessions like mortal peril.
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[ SENDING STUFF BEFORE DIEDAY AND HOPING IT GETS THERE... this is fine. ]
Hardship does bring us all closer together—it's... something of a silver lining! [ this all sucks so bad, being an optimist in this economy is so hard ] Though I don't think there's really a bad time for confessions of the heart. [ he means this platonically but ] I'm glad you're putting them out there.
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throné does not know this though so she just sits silently for a moment before:]
Thank you for helping me get better at it.
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I doubt I helped very much...!
[ it is true that being open is easier if someone else cracks the floodgates first, and that is almost always him, but. ]
You've had these kinds of feelings longer than you've known me. Maybe you've wanted to be able to share them?
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[she says, soft, amused. a pause, and then:]
... I think that maybe you are not wrong. [that she has wanted to share them. it's just now that she's been able to do it, with all the people she's found here.]
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Throné...!
[ back to obnoxious nuzzling actually! ]
You're so... [ searching for the word ] cute!
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-- Sidon. [she protests, getting mussed, but she's laughing as she says it so she's probably not very scolding for real.]