[ head tilts. nodd noticed this one giving him a few looks earlier and figured it was for the reaction. because this was all a joke. surely the same folks pretending to be bothered were hopping in and out of the silly avatars.
[ woah! the avatar doesn't seem to react very well to touch, glitching suddenly and in a big way, literally—one second he's patting eggluc, and the next, it's sidon, who has slouched over enough to allow for this. ]
—Oh! [ THE JIG IS UP. he smiles from under nodd's hand. ] You found me.
[ there is no way the big guy can escape a particularly aggressive hug from ya boy nodd. (losing you was the beginning of his mental spiral!!! yaaay!) ]
[ good because it's affection week, and he is all about hugs right now? actually, he's usually good for hugging, this is just the week where people don't awkwardly limp-fish their way through it. ]
Nodd!!
I did! Or—you all found us? We found each other!
[ he gives him a big squeeze, enough to pick him up right off the ground with a laugh. stop spiraling! ]
[ burrows face into digitally manifested shark chest. once off the ground, he wraps his legs around sidon. this is okay. carry him. it's been too long and he was very sad, weh. ]
It's good to see you!
[ muffled. tilts head straight up to look at sidon. ] How did you get here?
[ NOOOO not the sads... he will gladly carry nodd, supporting his weight so he doesn't need to just koala aggressively onto him. ]
Oh, honestly—it's better if I don't even guess. [ any speculation he has will be wrong ] It's very strange where we are, and it doesn't quite follow logic...
[ he glitches a little, thinking about it, before he shrugs. ]
It isn't for very long, for now, but I'm still grateful to see you all again!
[ that's okay, even if it weren't affection week he would be fine with this. if anything, the week's effects just mean that he's not the singular cuddly person in a room most of the time. ]
I am, I am! There's water, it's a bit... strange, but I really don't lack for anything!
[ he missed the spa opening, but at least he can sleep underwater where he is now. ]
...To be honest, I think you all are having a harder time of it than we are. [ he'll pat nodd's head. ] We do see basically everything.
[ ok nix what was said earlier, yes, it's fortunate sidon is holding nodd up. hearing that the dead have all seen basically everything causes koala to go limp. ]
Oh. Goodie.
[ hiding face again. this is where he belongs. voice muffled again. ]
[ tilts back further to look at the ceiling. always check the ceiling. then back to sidon's eye. ]
I wasn't mad at her. I was mad at myself. So I said something I tell myself and I should have... saved the thought. It was a mistake. I do hope she's doing all right, wherever you're at. Margaret, too. Everyone I'm sure is now aware I can be a real dipshit. If I make it to Saturday, I'm not saying a damn word.
[ the way ceiling evidence was made famous the last time i died..... some things never change ]
Mm. I don't abide by what you did during Dion's trial. Please don't pull Todomatsu into those sorts of schemes either.
[ saying it frankly. if he's forthright about all the positive things, he'll be honest about the negative ones, too. still, there's no disdain in him. rather, he shifts nodd's weight enough so he can pat his head, the sort of princely reprimand in his voice giving way to warmth. ]
...But I understand that you were moved by grief. Some people feel more than others—and you clearly love very deeply, Nodd. I don't think that's a bad thing. So do not feel that you need to silence or punish yourself more than necessary, all right? That sort of love... I think you can apply it to something wonderful!
[ he's already clearly reflected on what's happened. more pat pats. ]
I still think of you as a dear friend—I'm sorry that we have caused you so much heartache.
[ ew, todomatsu. why does everyone like that little muppet (that is taller than nodd)? no comment! not even a good scheme partner to begin with--but no comment!!! ]
Ahhh, I don't know about that. The love thing. There is a fine line squiggled between stupidity, obsession, and feeling something.
[ the pats are nice. tilts head down but it's for more, not less. ]
You remind me of my mentor. And--heh--I haven't missed the monastery since I left, but gods. Life was so much easier there. No men. No murder. No... computers. Just mushrooms and scaring off the giants sometimes. Easy. No distractions.
it might be more difficult than anticipated this upcoming weekend, but whatever, Mr. Mystery Scale. ]
Para was a water genasi--nothing like a Zora, but part water elemental, so. Similar connection, maybe. She found me when I was at my lowest and gave me something to do. First, I repaired the Spire towers under her supervision. I didn't know fuck-all about carpentry, so she taught me what she could and we figured out workarounds. And after a while, she took me on as a pupil. She taught me how to fight better. How to clear my mind sometimes. To breathe. To use Keys to connect with the roots of our world. To trust people again.
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suuurely. ]
If it's not fun anymore, wear something else.
[ pats round head? there there? ]
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—Oh! [ THE JIG IS UP. he smiles from under nodd's hand. ] You found me.
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[ there is no way the big guy can escape a particularly aggressive hug from ya boy nodd. (losing you was the beginning of his mental spiral!!! yaaay!) ]
I found you! You found me! You're here!
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Nodd!!
I did! Or—you all found us? We found each other!
[ he gives him a big squeeze, enough to pick him up right off the ground with a laugh. stop spiraling! ]
Ah, it is so good to see you again!
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It's good to see you!
[ muffled. tilts head straight up to look at sidon. ] How did you get here?
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Oh, honestly—it's better if I don't even guess. [ any speculation he has will be wrong ] It's very strange where we are, and it doesn't quite follow logic...
[ he glitches a little, thinking about it, before he shrugs. ]
It isn't for very long, for now, but I'm still grateful to see you all again!
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You seem okay. Are you okay? Are they feeding you in the afterlife?
[ don't starve the shark!!! ]
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I am, I am! There's water, it's a bit... strange, but I really don't lack for anything!
[ he missed the spa opening, but at least he can sleep underwater where he is now. ]
...To be honest, I think you all are having a harder time of it than we are. [ he'll pat nodd's head. ] We do see basically everything.
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Oh. Goodie.
[ hiding face again. this is where he belongs. voice muffled again. ]
See anything fun?
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Fun is a word. [ not the one he'd use, even if the curses and such are pretty silly. ] ...You've had a rough go of it, Nodd.
[ he draws back just a little, enough to make eye contact. ]
You know I don't want you to hold any grudges for my sake? I didn't fight Shouxue.
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[ tilts back further to look at the ceiling. always check the ceiling. then back to sidon's eye. ]
I wasn't mad at her. I was mad at myself. So I said something I tell myself and I should have... saved the thought. It was a mistake. I do hope she's doing all right, wherever you're at. Margaret, too. Everyone I'm sure is now aware I can be a real dipshit. If I make it to Saturday, I'm not saying a damn word.
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Mm. I don't abide by what you did during Dion's trial. Please don't pull Todomatsu into those sorts of schemes either.
[ saying it frankly. if he's forthright about all the positive things, he'll be honest about the negative ones, too. still, there's no disdain in him. rather, he shifts nodd's weight enough so he can pat his head, the sort of princely reprimand in his voice giving way to warmth. ]
...But I understand that you were moved by grief. Some people feel more than others—and you clearly love very deeply, Nodd. I don't think that's a bad thing. So do not feel that you need to silence or punish yourself more than necessary, all right? That sort of love... I think you can apply it to something wonderful!
[ he's already clearly reflected on what's happened. more pat pats. ]
I still think of you as a dear friend—I'm sorry that we have caused you so much heartache.
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Ahhh, I don't know about that. The love thing. There is a fine line squiggled between stupidity, obsession, and feeling something.
[ the pats are nice. tilts head down but it's for more, not less. ]
You remind me of my mentor. And--heh--I haven't missed the monastery since I left, but gods. Life was so much easier there. No men. No murder. No... computers. Just mushrooms and scaring off the giants sometimes. Easy. No distractions.
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Love in a bit of moderation, then!
[ there's a note of amusement there. maybe everyone could do with chilling out a bit. ]
...Life is very far from easy here. I'd be lying if I said I didn't miss my home either. [ but he doesn't linger on that. ] Tell me about your mentor?
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it might be more difficult than anticipated this upcoming weekend, but whatever, Mr. Mystery Scale. ]
Para was a water genasi--nothing like a Zora, but part water elemental, so. Similar connection, maybe. She found me when I was at my lowest and gave me something to do. First, I repaired the Spire towers under her supervision. I didn't know fuck-all about carpentry, so she taught me what she could and we figured out workarounds. And after a while, she took me on as a pupil. She taught me how to fight better. How to clear my mind sometimes. To breathe. To use Keys to connect with the roots of our world. To trust people again.